I want to fall in love with you
I want to fall in love with you.
And, I want you to fall in love with me. But not in the wild, untamable way of youth—more like a sensual, deliberate, slow dance filled with passion and moments of depth and connection.
I do not want to hurry, but rather unwrap the layers of this thing between us slowly over time. One touch, one look, one shared adventure at a time. I want to take my time and seek to feel one magnificent layer of your heart at a time. I want to see all of you, my warrior Soul. I want to marvel in your strength, I want to surrender in the safety of your arms—but I also want to know your fears, kiss your tears and hold your hand at night, when the past takes its toll on your heart, and memories of mistakes and hurts come alive in your dreams.
I want to be the one you wake up with and the one you hold onto when life gets unkind. I want quiet Sunday mornings with you sipping coffee, safe in the knowing that no words are needed in this space we have created.
I want us to laugh together. Often. Deeply.
I want nights sitting by a campfire beneath the moonlight talking about the significant things in life—all the things money cannot buy. I want to share with you all my dreams, all my fears, all my wonders. The stories of my life. Both the ones I tell with pride and the once I have hidden for decades. I want to share them all with you.
Life in its own perfect, un-perfect way.
I want to sit with you and watch waves rolling against the coastline reminding me of the strength and wildness of nature. I want to be reminded to treasure every moment with you. Even those filled with unmeet needs or unkind words triggered by childhood wounds.
I want to remember that none of that truly matters, that all it is, are lessons on living from a point of authenticity. I want to remember that nothing lasts forever and what matters is right here, right now. Moments of shared aliveness.
I want you to take your sweet time exploring this woman I have become. This Wild Woman years of living have created. The goddess, the magician, the artist, the healer, the mother… all of her.
I want you to know all the suffering I have done, but more so I want you to see the strength, touch the softness and sense the vulnerability this life of mine has birthed deep within my bones.
So often falling in love is hurried and becomes a fairytale destined to unravel, when everyday living uncovers the cracks of un-meet dreams. I do not want that. I want you to see all of me. I want you to get to know who I am before you make any decisions.
I want to know, that if you ever say; “I love you”— you know exactly who I am.
I want to see you. All of you. I want to see the man this life of yours has created with all his scares, all his hurts and all the stories you have never told another living Soul. I want you to be real, to be raw, to trust that your secrets are safe with me.
I want to honor all that you are, and every battle it has taken to create the man you have become.
I want to stand by your side and see what we can create together. I want to see your heart, touch your Soul, but more than anything; I want to know you. All of you. All the darkness, all the light. All the things you are ashamed of. All the things that carry you through the days of your life. I want to know them all.
I want to fall in love with you.
And, I want you to fall in love with me.
~p.barksdale
// by Bark.™ // Walking Wilder™
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